Toni On New York!

I went into this week a little dejected. Why? Well although everyone I know commented on how great I look I didn’t feel it. I didn’t tell anyone how I was feeling and I should have. The Holidays came and went as fast as anyone could imagine. I did pretty well as far as eating is concerned but somehow I didn’t feel like I was making a dent in this battle I’ve had with weight all my life. I started to let the voice in my head convince me that I’m not going to reach any significant number when it comes to weight loss. I’m used to being the “fat girl” and comfortable in that role. So, I started asking myself why start now? Yea, same questions the naysayers posed when I started this journey.

I’ve since gotten myself out of that negative funk mostly because I have so many amazing people behind me lending support and encouraging words. Another reason is my 11 year olds observation that I looked sad and wanted to know why. I couldn’t let him see me like that so I’ve changed the pout to a smile and plan on getting back to my serious plan to get healthy. I’ve read people griping about New Year’s resolutions and how they hate them because no one seems to stick to them past the end of January. I’m almost 9 weeks into mine and I intend to fully commit to it for life. Ray and Lisa tell us it’s not a short term change but a total permanent change.

So here we go, this picture of me looking round is going to be my before picture forever. It will be one that I can show people and say “That was me. I did it. I got healthy.” Then there will be my interim pictures. The ones Ray takes during the work out and I look annoyed. My after picture will be one where I look healthy, happy, and most of all thinner. Alright let’s do this! The pity party is over because guess what—the only person in attendance was me… Week 9 is here and I don’t have much longer to work out the kinks in this body alongside these awesome women. Ready, Sweat, GO!

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